It has been 18 days since I have smoked

It has been hard but 18 days have gone by and I have not smoked, I chew some nicorette gum but it is nothing compared to smoking a pack and half a day. It is definitly getting easier!

It has been 10 days

I cannot believe I have gone 10 days without smoking I have not once had one and I still keep chewing the gum down to about 3 pieces a day it is wonderful!!! I still get massive cravings once in a while when I am stressed out and unfortunatly lately that is my middle name right now with the finances and the things going on with my husband but it will all work out.

I really need to get myself back to exercising and maybe jogging that would definitly help relieve stress but also help me not gain the weight I just lost. Well I guess it will all work out.

Have a great weekend all!

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It has been week!

I have made it a week without smoking I don't have anymore physical cravings but the mental cravings come all the time. When I get angry or stressed or upset over something I am ready to go and get a pack of cigarettes and just smoke away and i think nothing of the thought that i made this long without I made through the worst part of with the physical, mental, and emotional all together.

I am still trying to find ways not to gain weight or when I am stressed figure out what to do so I don't go and get a cigarette. I keep telling myself to get through the next 2 weeks that is going to be the hardest now for the mental part it takes 21 days to break a habit it only takes 72 hours to get the physical part of the nicotine out of you but the emotional and mental habit is harder to break!! Well if anyone has suggestions let me know.

It is my 5th day

I am doing it but it has been very difficult and I know I am not out of the woods yet. It is going to be a long time before I can even go an hour without thinking of smoking. The first day during the day was ok, but then that afternoon was horrible and it took a good 48 hours to 60 hours when I lost all motivation I would have these little anxiety attacks they felt big at the time. I would have times when all I could do is cry I would get really mad it just really sucked.

I use the Nicorette gum sparingly I only chew maybe 3 pieces a day that is only when I get the really bad cravings and I am ready to go out and get a pack of cigarettes that I chew it. They say it takes 21 days to break a habit it took about 72 hours for me to get over the hard physical and emotional part, I am far from being over it! I know it is going to take a lifetime to know I cannot ever pick up a cigarette again there is no way!

I hope everyone has a good day!

I just don't know what to do

I am at a stand still I cannot stand this I really don't know what to do and if this feeling is ever going to go away. I am using the gum occasionally but I just don't have know if this is going to work I am getting really depressed and anxious and I really don't know what to do. I didn't think this was going to be this hard with feeling depressed I don't know what to do.

I have gone day one

I made it my first day but man was it hard at one point my friend came up with the nicorette gum I was ready to cave I was going cold turkey the longest time through the day and did alright but then I had this craving around 4:00 pm that would not go away. I really enjoyed smoking so I have a really hard time getting it out of my head. Anyway the gum helped alot I haven't use anymore since I didn't really feel I needed it I am only doing it when I get really bad cravings. Like I did at that time I was ready to cave I cannot believe it, I was just going to go out and get a cigarette and smoke it. This is so frustrating that this is what it has come to with me I cannot believe how much I got addicted to it and how much I liked and want it! I know I am going to feel better I quit before when I was pregnant and I didn't think anything of it I stopped immediatly and I was done. It is a shame I don't care about myself as much to just quit and not think about it again. My children were more important. Anyway that is a given.

I am quitting for myself but I am also doing it for my kids I am explaining to them whenever I get a bad craving or like last night when I was ready to cave I tell them this is why you don't even want to pick it up it is so bad for you, you don't want to go through this you don't start it and you won't have to quit it. I really hope they see and understand what I am going through where they know it is not even worth starting because it is so hard to stop!

Well I am done babbling for a while I don't even know if I made any sense but I tried.

This really sucks!

I cannot believe I got myself to this point. I am craving a cigarette so bad right now it is the middle of the day and I am so frustrated I could rip someone's head off!!! all I want to do is get through the next couple days and I should be alright physically. It is mentally I am having the problem with. I am so annoyed right now I cannot stand it. I hate this I hate that I smoked and got myself so addicted to it that I need to have one to calm down!!! Gosh I gotta go!!

The day has come to BREAK THE HABIT!

Well my quit day has come and Iam doing alright considering I have only been up 25 mins. But that is ok. Last night I had my last cigarette at 11:05. I ended up smoking 2 of them in a row and I got so sick to my stomach and I got such a head rush on the second one it really help me think about it more of what I am doing with my health.

I know this is not going to be easy and I know I had a road ahead of me of fighting cravings and stress and learning how to do other things instead of smoke. The really good thing is I am going to have alot more time on my hands, I have a craft I am making my daughter that is a latch hook so I am going to start doing that again today. Of course I have cleaning to do, so that will help me and if I chill out I don't have to come down stairs in the middle of a show or after a show is over to smoke.

I also am going to get myself into exercising again I was execising while I smoked Jan- July to lose 50lbs so now imagine how great it is going to be not smoking before or after I exercise. I have to tell myself this stuff it keeps me m0tivated but my biggest motivation in my kids and my husband. I am quitting for myself because I am the only one I can do it for BUT I focus on how happy my kids were last night when I read my pledge to them and how proud they were of me. Mind you I know I am the adult but to have my children look at me and be so proud it would make any parent feel good. My husband does not nag me he really doesn't say much to me once in a while he'll say so when are you quitting that and then it is drop, or he throws out there of how much money we can save if I stop and I know this but he doesn't do meanly ever, and he doesn't do it often. Is he going to be happy I quit definitely. Well I am going to go for now but I will be back again today I have this feeling so talk to you all later.

Have a good day!

This is it my last Day as a SMOKER!!

I will be a non smoker in 24 hours. It is time to quit this habit before anything happens to my health. It is bad enough I did as much damage as I have but now it is time for me to prevent anything else from happen if possible.

I am getting alittle anxious from it but it will be alright I am going to get up and write alittle then I will go out and walk for a while considering I get up at 5:00 in the morning so I am going to have some time to kill.

Everyone say a prayer for me tonight and let me know if you have any suggestions.

Have a GREAT day all!

2 more days

I only have today and tomorrow and then I will be a non smoker. I am getting alittle nervous now. I really want to do this and I am looking forward to the money I will be saving on top of how much healthy I will be once I stop. My hardest time is going to be when I get up in the morning and in the evenings. I am hoping I can keep myself busy enough during the day that I won't be thinking about it the whole time. I know I can do this and my kids deserve to have their mother around.

I guess it is going to be alittle harder then usual because I enjoy smoking I don't know how I got to that point but I did I like to smoke, even though it is so bad for you.

I hope everyone has a good day and I will take all the suggestions and advice you have. Thanks.

3 more days until I quit!

Well I tried to change my morning routine up a bit this morning so I can get use to not going out first thing in the morning and smoke. I know I need to have coffee in the morning but I figured I would change the first couple of days and drink a bottle of water and walk outside for a while 1st then I will come in and have a cup of coffee while I am making lunches and getting the kids ready for school. I am alittle nervous about it but I am actually looking forward to it!!!

I hope everyone has a great day! and like I said any suggestions or advice is greatly appreciated!

Last Sunday as a smoker!

I only have 4 more days to smoke, then I will be a non smoker again. I am getting myself ready for it starting to change my habits during the day and figuring out how I am going to deal with the first couple of mornings when I get up! If you have suggestions let me know I will take all the advice I can get!

Have a great day!

Well I lost the WEIGHT now it is time to break the habit!

My 2 friends and I have set the day to quit smoking together we spend so much time together it would be very difficult to do it while the other 2 smoked around me and vice versa so we have set the date and now we are just getting prepared I figured this is going to be a good outlet for me cause I am going to have alot of time on my hands and I really don't want to think about it constantly so I will be typing and blogging for a while.

ANYONE! with suggestions please feel free to comment and pass this on to others so they can comment and give advice because I need all the help I can get!!!!

Have a Great day everyone!